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Monday, November 28, 2011

Words of Encouragement.11.28.11


" For being the best in what you do, you've got to believe that you are the best in what you do. Believe that no one else is better in what you do until proven wrong. You will see that nobody can prove you wrong."
Written in 2011 by Renier Maritz --- South Africa


" If there is a problem, there is a solution also."
S. P. Verma --- Submitted by Rekha V. --- India



" Nothing is predestined: the obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings."
Ralph Blum --- Submitted by Marlene Blaszczyk --- Michigan


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Monday, October 3, 2011

My Declaration of Self-Esteem: by Virginia Satir

I AM ME


In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me
Everything that comes out of me is authentically me
Because I alone chose it - I own everything about me
My body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions,
Whether they be to others or to myself - I own my fanatasies,
My dreams, my hopes, my fears - I own all my triumphs and
Successes, all my failures and mistakes Because I own all of
Me, I can become intimately acquainted with me - by so doing
I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts - I know
There are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other
Aspects that I do not know - but as long as I am
Friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously
And hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles
And for ways to find out more about me - However I
Look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever
I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically
Me - If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought
And felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is
Unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that
Which I discarded - I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be
Productive to make sense and order out of the world of
People and things outside of me - I own me, and
therefore I can engineer me - I am me and


I AM OKAY

Too Much TV May Take Years Off Your Life

Just some food for thought so to speak :D

<link>http://news.yahoo.com/too-much-tv-may-years-off-life-231005195.html</link>

Yup I am back, all my fans can rejoice and my critics can cringe ;) I love you all regardless.  Not that much to say but a little article that prompted some self realization.

I do like this line in it

"But other experts cautioned that the study did not show that TV watching caused people to die sooner, only that there was an association between watching lots of TV and a shorter lifespan."

I like that they are giving us the info but not really trying to push the idea on us only inform.  I like that and I am usually more open to this approach

I cant imagine sitting in front of anything is good for us.  so for my all night video game sessions that last about 10 hours or more I've taken about 3.5 hours off my life :/ and I have done that ALOT.  I guess when its put into perspective and I am forced to look at what the mindless actions of my life are doing its an eye opener, will I change? hard to tell on that one *chuckles* I would like to think so but thinking so won't get it done, only action will



**Knowledge is Power**

11 Simple Swaps for Dramatic Weight Loss


 www.rd.com/slideshows/11-simple-swaps-for-dramatic-weight-loss/?trkid=ERDA13022-1

Readers Digest is always sendig me emails, and to be fair I did sign up for it.  When they come I grumble and I have started to unsubscribe more than once yet I am fearful I might miss something *chuckles*

So today I opened this one and I was going through it and I really enjoyed it, will there be anything that shakes your world up? probably not but maybe.

It didn't shake my world in the traditional sence but it did help me to realize a few places I could be shaving off some uncessarly calories.

This is another version of the eat this not that genre so take what you need and leave the rest

**Knowledge is power**

Thursday, September 8, 2011

8 Diet Food Ripoffs

health.yahoo.net/experts/eatthis/8-diet-food-ripoffs



Ahhhh yes I am back again for your viewing pleasure, well your reading pleasure, but then again reading is viewing.  Ok this is getting complicated: /

I do so enjoy the rip off lists *chuckles* As articles are almost as amusing as they are varied and plentiful.
However I do believe that if we only give them a quick glance we lose a very valuable lesson here.

First run through I just kind of chucked and rolled my eyes and it had been a while since I posted an article so I figured what the heck time to give everyone a thrill (yes actually I do a tad bit of an ego problem, but just because I think everyone should love me doesn't mean they don’t *grins*)

So I slapped this down and went about posting it, didn't really have much intention of writing much of a review to go along with it but then I started to come up with witty and intelligent things to say which I found amusing so that of course required me to go back and read a little bit better and put some work into it (rolls my eyes) so I could actually speak about the article intelligently (I don't want to hear it)

And I began really looking at each item one by one, some of them either it seemed like common knowledge (to me) which really doesn't mean squat to anyone else or they are things I wouldn't touch with a 10 foot pole even if you dipped them in chocolate, which again really isn't of much interest to anyone but me.

Isn't it fascinating how trusting we are in this day and age? toss around words like salad or yogurt, smoothie or fresh roast turkey and swiss and it almost becomes 2nd nature to most of us to just assUME it’s healthy, I mean they wouldn't lie to use would they?

Well yes I believe they would however that’s the not the point.  I would say that don't ask don't tell works about as well here as it does for our gay and lesbian brothers and sisters in the armed forces.  If we don't ask they won't tell, ok so many it’s not exactly the same concept but I am sticking with it so I can continue to feel superior and cleaver.

Now near as I can tell no one is lying to us, they aren't exactly jumping out and sharing this info with us (well some are) they are just neglecting to tell us about it, and hey if we aren't smart enough to look it up or are too lazy then we get what we deserve right?  I guess that’s debatable and all up to subjective debate, of which I am really not interested in having, yes I know I speak about everyone having a voice unless it’s a topic I am talking about then I don't want to talk about it.  For the record I never said I WASN'T a hypocrite, I'm a work in progress now stop interrupting

First up we have the
#8 Breyers Carb Smart bars, honestly to me 180 calories with 5g sugar and 15g of fat don't really seem like a big deal to me, to be fair I am more worried about carbs and sugar being that I am diabetic at this point so I do not discount the fat content its just one more thing I cannot fully focus on.

Although its a little disturbing that one "healthy" carb smart bar has as much fat as 3 McDonalds cheeseburgers, not as many calories but as much fat.  Somehow that just doesn't seem fair *chuckles*
I guess the Klondike bars are a good replacement, if you can find them in a store near you.  I would be apt to say that perhaps the best policy in this case is maybe just skipping the dessert all together.

I know half the people say that you MUST treat yourself once in a while or we will go insane, I call Bull**** on that one, THEY have to treat themselves everyone in a while or they go insane, if I treat myself at all I go insane.  Some things I cannot have not even a little, not even once in a while.  Its not about portion control or will power or any of that other bull**** that other people like to cling to and then pawn off onto those of us who don't fit into it, my issues go deeper than that so ill thank you to back out of my grill and let me handle my biddness partner.
If you cannot handle a snack like me, then DON'T HAVE IT!!! Just because other people can have it and it works for them doesn't mean everyone can.  I don't really give a rats *** if it’s an expert or Aunt Ginny, what works for them doesn't always work for you and me, dare to be different and actually use what works for YOU not what everyone else tells us to use.

#7 Smoothies, well to be honest I could really care less about this one, wouldn't drink it so it doesn't really apply to me however the drastic difference in sugars from one to the other is eye opening, again diabetic so sugars important to me and the 90 calories difference is pretty substantial in my book.
Fruit smoothies are nice and all but I think this has to fall into my fruit category, if I want apple juice I am going to eat and apple, if I want orange juice I am going to eat an orange, I think you can see the pattern that is developing here.

But again generally just  another thing I don't care about so it’s not important to me, yet I go the extra mile for you my dear people to bring you the news you care about, yes your welcome, no thanks needed just send money.


#6 Quiche, for once I honestly have nothing to say, never had it, don't know as I ever will, don't care how good it is but if this is something you like then heads up :D

#5 Healthy Yogurt
I have not been to Au bon Pain a lot but I'm thinking that if one doesn't know that most "healthy" things from there aren't that healthy they are probably in more trouble than I can provide help for here, be like going to McDonalds for that healthy double quarter pounder with cheese, sounds too good to be true? Probably is.

But another thing I wouldn't buy out, I get my yogurt at the store, I read the labels I know what’s going on (mostly) however if this is a healthy indulgence of yours, well heads up

#4 Healthy Cereals
chances are if any cereal you’re eating tastes halfway good there is probably something unhealthy in it for you *chuckles* but that is an off the cuff uneducated statement, I do not eat cereal anymore and have not for a long time, personal preference nothing more, watch out what’s coming out of your box


#3 Healthy Sandwich
Now this is the type of trap I fall into all the time, I just assume that it’s healthy and I don't ask questions.  The truth is I probably don't really want to know the truth so I don't ask questions.  But anytime a sandwich is piled high with toppings and meat, cheese and bread are involved, it’s a pretty good bet quite a few calories are coming with it.

The Arbys up here, which coincidently is the one fast food restaurant I do not eat at, I have always thought there food was disgusting and just not for me.  I am sure they do a good job and everything is as it should be but it’s not my idea of a good time, which is odd seeing as how I am an fast food junkie, go figure.
But up here they have all the calories on the board with the food which I LOVEEEEE
I think everyplace should be made to do this, well maybe suggest they do it, and if they don't want too that’s cool I will just eat elsewhere.
Seeing the calories up on the board when ordering allows us to make a better selection of meals, if that’s even possible at Arbys *chuckles*

#2 Healthy Salads
ah the salad rip off.  I don't know how many times I just order a salad and feel like i am doing the greatest service to myself I possibly can and now that i think about it I wonder how many of them were well over 500 calories and bordering 1000?
A salad (by my definition) is made up of veggies, lettuce or spinach, cucumbers, tomatoes, carrots, onions, and whatever the hell else you want to put in them I'm not here to debate the best recipe for a salad, the point is when you start adding meat, or cheese, or croutons, or dressing, or bacon or anything that’s not really veggie related well chances are you’re asking for trouble and in this case ignorance is bliss and I have found it leads to a larger behind.







Romaine
2 cups = 20 calories
8 servings = 160
Let’s say there are 8 servings in a pound, I am just using hypothetical examples here for a visual, I am not really concerned about how many actual servings are in a pound of romaine
Cucumber (peeled)
3 cups= 42
Tomato
6 slices = 16
18 slices = 48
==========================
Total calories 250

Ok so after some crazy monkey math on my part let’s say hypothetically if you ate 8 cups of romaine, 3 cups of peeled sliced cucumbers and 18 slices of fresh tomato that is a mountain of salad and is only 250 calories total (give or take)that is without dressing or anything else.

Now imagine the size of a salad you actually get in a restaurant and look at the calories on the one here, 1000? holy s*** Now not all salad in restaurants is unhealthy but the more they or you add to it the less healthy it becomes.  They have a taco salad that doesn't mean it’s healthy *chuckles*


#1 Pasta
ok for me anything with noodles in it is going to be high in calories especially once you add a sauce and meat or things of that nature. 1281 calories seems a bit damn excessive, but I do admire there moxy by tossing in asparagus and spinach spaghetti with grilled chicken breast, how the hell can that NOT be anything but healthy?  Well there it is

So no matter how far my math is off or how much you may or may not agree with the things in the article the bottom msg here is QUESTION EVERYTHING!!!!
If we cannot get exactly nutritional value on everything we are putting into our mouths, especially in a restaurant perhaps we should consider eating elsewhere, otherwise we deserve what we get.  If we just eat and assume it’s healthy and do not do the proper detective work to figure it out because we assume the restaurant (or food company) has our best interest at heart then we kind of deserve to gain those few extra pounds because we were too lazy to take the extra few minutes to look the food up, or if we were proactive but still could not figure out what the calories come out to and we choose to eat it anyways, well we have to accept personal responsibility somewhere.

People want to sue McDonalds for making them fat or sue Big Tobacco for giving them cancer, I say give me a freaking break.  I don't care if McDonalds is putting crack cocaine in the food and the cigarette companies are putting something just as addictive in cigarettes in THIS day and age if we are not smart enough to realize these things are horrible for us and killing us. Well....Ok so I cannot say we deserve to get cancer or we deserve to die from obesity related complications due to eating a steady diet of fast food but for the love of God and all that’s holy there is NO WAY we can sit here and blame those companies, McDonalds is not delivering to my house and last time I checked when I was a dirty filthy smoker many years ago I had to actually go to the store, ask for the smokes, open the package, light the lighter and take a puff before that nasty smoke go into my lungs, how the hell is that big tobacco fault?
Smoking, eating, drugs, drinking it’s all addiction on some levels and anyone who needs help should be able to find it HOWEVER, WE NEED TO WANT THE HELP AND WE NEED TO TAKE THE STEPS TO GET THE HELP WE NEED!!! Sitting back and blaming the big corporations for killing us while we sit back and smoke ciggys and eat double quarter pounders while not making any strides or getting any help or doing anything to help ourselves we are just as much to blame as the people providing us with our drug of choice.
The buck has to stop somewhere, is it right that they take advantage of us and know how to seduce us and lure us in? No of course not, but we cannot sit back and cry 100% victim as well.
If I do not ask or check up on what I am eating I cannot cry foul when I find out my healthy salad has 1000 calories in it,  If I cannot get info on what the nutritional value is in a meal and I eat it anyways, well that’s when 100% of the responsibility falls on my shoulders
It’s a lot of hard work to play food detective, but in this day and age we have no excuse what so ever, we all pretty much have access to the internets, so there is no excuse.  We might not get 100% accurate data all the time but it’s enough to steer us in the right direction.

We need to sit up, wake up, grow up and stand up and take responsibility for our actions and our choices.  There is only so much we can do but we must do that much and be responsible for ourselves and together we will figure the rest of it out as we go.
This concludes todays rant, it was brought to you in part by the following; Lack of sleep, an unchecked ego, delusions of grandeur and self-importance, and too easy access to the internet, just because a monkey can drive a car doesn’t mean it’s a good idea to give him the keys

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

9 Habits That Can Do More Harm Than Good

shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/9-habits-that-can-do-more-harm-than-good-2524048 

Nothing really blew my skirt up here (no I don't really wear skirts I would make a hella ugly woman)
might be some stuff that is useful to some so I'm posting it.

The skipping meals thing seems relevant as does the only drinking botted water.

If its useful take it if not then leave it, as always the choice is yours!

**Knowledge is Power*

Too Much TV May Take Years Off Your Life

Too Much TV May Take Years Off Your Life

http://news.yahoo.com/too-much-tv-may-years-off-life-231005195.html


Just some food for thought so to speak :D

Yup I am back, all my fans can rejoice and my critics can cringe ;) I love you all regardless.  Not that much to say but a little article that prompted some self realization.

I do like this line in it

"But other experts cautioned that the study did not show that TV watching caused people to die sooner, only that there was an association between watching lots of TV and a shorter lifespan."

I like that they are giving us the info but not really trying to push the idea on us only inform.  I like that and I am usually more open to this approach

I cant imagine sitting in front of anything is good for us.  so for my all night video game sessions that last about 10 hours or more I've taken about 3.5 hours off my life :/ and I have done that ALOT.  I guess when its put into perspective and I am forced to look at what the mindless actions of my life are doing its an eye opener, will I change? hard to tell on that one *chuckles* I would like to think so but thinking so won't get it done, only action will



**Knowledge is Power**

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

***WARNING******WARNING******WARNING******WARNING***
This posting has been rated PG-13 by the National Blogging Association Rating System (NBARS)

This posting is long and possibly boring which might result in sleepiness or dizziness do not read this and operate heavy machinery or dangerous appliances or weapons.  It may also contain possible math requirements on your part.  However the violence, nudity, cursing and all around ranting and raving has been cut to a minimum.  The opinions expressed here are those of the individual poster and does not represent the views of Spark people or any of its subsidiary’s.
(I was thinking I might have to rerate it PG as I didn't use the customary one F word were allowed in a PG-13 rating, hmm what to do what to do, a f*** it I’ll let it stand)
***WARNING******WARNING******WARNING******WARNING***


www.pressherald.com/news/Fast-food-eateries-to-offer-more-healthful-kids-options-.html

Well it’s a start.   I would like to see a law that REQUIRED all restaurants big and small to post ALL calories for everything on their menu.

I know it’s on alot of websites and blah blah blah but it should be there right below the meal listing, break it down simple  Calories:  Carbs: Fat: Sodium:

You can put those in pretty small letters so it doesn’t take up alot of room.  The last time I was in an Arbys, which was years ago but I was in there with someone and all the calories were listed right on the menu board I thought this was FANTASTIC!!

I think should happen everywhere food is sold, the numbers should be right on the menu.  I am not talking about fast food places either I am talking about EVERYWHERE.   I know most of these places have a wall poster somewhere, ok I give them points for that and I further know you can research this stuff on the internet before we go but let’s be honest most of us wont.  Will having said calories on the menu help? Maybe, maybe not.  It sure as hell will make people stop and think for a minute and if they choose to power on ahead and plow through 2000-4000 calories in a meal so be it


Let’s take Chili's for instance.  I LOVE CHILIS!!!! This place is great, the one I go to here in Maine is downstate (thankfully) but when I used to go the service was top notch and the food was excellent  I will post a link to the nutrition menu so you can poke around and look at that and  I even post some meals and calorie totals.

www.chilis.com/EN/Nutritional%20Information/Chilis_Nutrition_Menu_Generic.pdf

Let’s say you ate the
Texas Cheese Fries w/ Chili & Ranch As Served
Calories  Fat    Sat Fat  Calories  Protein  Fiber  Sodium
2120      144    69       117       97       14     5920
Classic Bacon Burger As Served
Calories Fat  sat Fat Carbs  Protein  Fiber  Sodium
1570     91   28      125    61       9      3690
===============================================================
= 3690 calories
And lets further assume you split the appetizer with someone so subtract 1060 calories
 you are still at 2690 for one meal, not taking into account soda and or dessert or alcohol ===============================================================
Triple Dipper™ Chicken Crispers® No Dressing As Served
Calories  Fat  Sat Fat   Carbs   Protein   Fiber  Sodium
340       15     4       21        30        1    1130
Southern Smokehouse Burger w/ Ancho Chile BBQ As Served
calorie  Fat    Sat Far Carbs  Protein  Fiber   Sodium
2290     139    46      163    93       11      6500
===============================================================
=2630 calories and we will subtract for splitting the chicken crispers =2460

Now I am not even taking into account the amount of carbs which is quite a bit plus the amount of sodium which is off the friggin charts on most of this stuff.

Now let’s say you are a healthier eater and plan to eat smarter, below is my salad chart and as you can see None of those salads are below 500 c alories save the house salad with no dressing .  Now those calorie amounts don't even take into account you putting dressing on, so let’s add another 100 calories for dressing.  Now most of the salads are 700+ calories and in 1 case over 1000 calories and in another case 1500 calories, for a salad.
Boneless Buffalo Chicken Salad As Served
Cal   Fat   SF   Carbs   Prot   Fiber   Sod
990   68    14    48      46     8     4310

Caribbean Salad w/ Grilled Chicken As Served
Cal   Fat   SF   Carbs   Prot   Fiber   Sod
610    25    4    65      33     6      800

Caribbean Salad w/ Grilled Shrimp As Served
Cal   Fat   SF   Carbs   Prot   Fiber   Sod
620    31    6    66      19     6     1060

Chicken Caesar Salad As Served
Cal   Fat   SF   Carbs   Prot   Fiber   Sod
650   44     8    26     40      5     1130

Cobb Salad As Served
Cal   Fat   SF   Carbs   Prot   Fiber   Sod
710   52    15    22     46      11     1050



House Salad No Dressing As Served
Cal   Fat   SF   Carbs   Prot   Fiber   Sod
180   11    6     15      10     2      290

Quesadilla Explosion Salad As Served
Cal   Fat   SF   Carbs   Prot   Fiber   Sod
1400  89    28    90     65      9      236

Hungry for dessert?
Brownie Sundae As Served
Cal   Fat   SF   Carbs   Prot   Fiber   Sod
1290   61   30    195     14     8      930

Now let’s move on the kids menu.
The kid’s meals pretty everyone one of them 500 calories or less except one
There are 23 kids’ meal choices
2 of those choices are grilled chicken
they have 3 fruit choices and they have 4 veggie choices although 2 of them were corn and kind of high in calories 150 or better
Everything else was fried or things that were just not the healthiest choices for kids and they didn't come with side orders so you have to figure most of the "meals" or main dish's for kids average 200-500 calories, plus if they want French fries that’s another 190 and if they want any sort of dessert which they do have fruit options.  So let’s break it down like this and granted it’s not typical and parents make choices and I really don't want to get into a debate about splitting hairs and who doesn't allow their kids to do this, I don't really care I'm simply illustrating a point I don't need or require anything to say  "well I don't allow my kids to eat this stuff"  Good we will pass out gold stars later


Average Kids meal
Grill Cheese sandwich:        530 calories
French Fries:                  190 calories
Soda:                          200 calories (give or take)
Side of pineapple for dessert 35 calories
----------------------------------------------
=955 calories

Now this is assuming they order off the kids menu and not the adult menu 955 calories is alot for anyone but especially a child under say 12.
There is a place here in northern Maine called Grammys Country Inn.  They are known for good food, and GIANT portion sizes.
Ill post links below off their Facebook page


This is some sort of cream filled dessert next to a coke can.  Might be cookies on the outside

 www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=319652247096&set=a.319650617096.156668.318021972096&type=1&theater

This my friends is called a WHOOPIE PIE

www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1732308274079&set=o.318021972096&type=1&theater 


For those of you who really don't know what this is here you go:

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Whoopie_pie

This would be a seafood platter and the seafood is sitting on top of a mountain of French fries

www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=345931796382&set=o.318021972096&type=1&theater

These are just some examples of the size of the food they put out there.

I usually have a cheeseburger club with fries and something to drink.  I SHUDDER to think of how many calories are in the meal.  It’s not your average club sandwich, it’s an evil twin brother that is on steroids and its huge.

I don't really go there anymore and when I do its usually for breakfast but having calories on the menu is almost needed there because the amount of food they put out its almost impossible to figure out how much you’re eating calories wise.

Yes its going to cost money to do this, who gives a sh*t? I mean really it NEEDS to be done.  Raise the prices a little bit to recoup the cost, suck it up and accept it as a cost of doing business.  Be a friggin responsible business owner and care about your community and the health and well-being of your patrons, is this too much to as? I think not.  Outside of my own personal views do you think it’s too much to ask? HELL YES.  I bet it would be a battle of epic proportions to get this passed and restaurants would fight tooth and nail to avoid it because it’s going to cut into the bottom line.  Well one way or another it’s going to cut into the bottom line when people can no longer fit in the booths and stop coming or they die of obesity related illness and no longer come.

With the countries obesity level at over 50% (somewhere around 60% I think) how can can we afford NOT to do something like this?

Talk to your local restaurants; see if they will do it.  I bet a few will, should be interesting to see what the others have to say.  See how much they really value your business.  I shall start a campaign in my small town to see how many restaurants will adopt this, I want to say I don't think many will but I am trying not to be negative.  It should prove and interesting experiment.

Turning "someday" into today

www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=388


I sometimes read the spark articles they send me *chuckles* most of the time I store them for "later" reading.  There are times I start systematically going through them and banging out the ones I want and delete the ones I do not.  I am glad I read this one.

It talks about the freedom of realizing that everything you want, everything you want to do, all the stuff you want to collect, read, paint, buy, fix or anything else you wish to do, and it’s just not going to happen.

Now this is not a negative thing its simply saying we cannot have everything we want most of the time and we simply have to come to grips with the fact that every single thing we wish to do is not always realistic and just a statement of freedom, as the article says.  It frees us from a train of thinking that never stops and the places we want to get off on keep flashing by us, it’s time to stop the train

"This is not a critique of any lack of organizational skills on your part, or a reason to give up altogether. Rather, it’s a statement of freedom."

To me this is very freeing.  I have literally a hundred books I want to read, maybe more, very possibly 150-200.  All self-help books, all books on exercise and lifestyle changes, proper diet in the sense of what we eat not a "diet"

I have art projects that have sat in the boxes for years now.  I have stuff packed in boxes I always mean to get to and organize.  I have hundreds of pieces of paper about various topics I wish to organize and put into the binders which I bought for just such a task.]

I am not a reader so most probably I will never read all those books, there is a chance I might but most probably not.  I don't make the time to sit down and read every day.  I do have something’s I read every day but it’s usually daily readers from my programs which are great and hold some pearls of wisdom but it takes only about 5 minutes to read from all 3 books.  I have the time to sit down and read at some point most days I simply do not budget my time accordingly.

So I must go through and choose the books that will most benefit my life and create a time to read them, create a plan to read them.  X amount of pages per day in order to finish the book by X.  Figure out how many books I can read a week/month/year and plan accordingly.
My papers actually have some importance as they deal with eating disorders and obesity and mindfulness, all things that are beneficial to my wellbeing and journey to a better life.

I once started to learn guitar but I lacked the ambition, drive and motivation to really learn it.  I wasn't passionate about it.

I have many things I wish to do, learn a language with Rosetta Stone, learn to computer program, create games, write fiction, start a non-profit, help create programs to offer solutions to people with eating disorders and obesity, go into schools and talk to kids about the dangers of not taking care of one’s self.

I have many things I wish to do but I have not done any of them for any consistent period of time.

I have to choose the projects that will most enrich my life and help me reach my goals.
Some of them maybe therapeutic and help me to relax and de-stress.  Some of them might be about changes my town, state, and this country needs in the battle for obesity.  Some might just be fun like publishing a book of my short stories.

Yet I work on none of these, and I keep adding more and more to the pile all the time.
So I have to decide what are just passing whims that won't enrich my life and what are things that will bring something to my life that I am lacking.

It’s a very good article and I enjoyed it, will I put it to good use? It’s hard to say really.  I must come up with a good workable plan and focus on executing it.  Time will tell
What do you want to do in your life that you are not?

**knowledge is power**

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Musings of a mad mind

I find it very interesting as I travel through the halls of Spark People and the pages I come across.  People often have pictures of their goals or what they wish to look like but very rarely do they ever post what they actually look like.  I think it’s very therapeutic to post a pic and say this is who I am take me or leave me but it’s me.  I also feel it’s important for us to accept ourselves as we are, not hide.  We might not like what we look like currently but hiding it will never accomplish anything.

  I have pictures posted on SP and Facebook which I absolutely HATE with a passion.  I could delete them or untag myself from them but I do not.  I cannot sit here and pretend I am anything but a very large man who weights quite a bit and is in very serious trouble health wise.

Now the other thing I find fascinating is the pictures of what people wish to be, or their goal "body” The pictures are hot and being male, well I take my time to poke and look around soaking in the surroundings.  Yet I often wonder if these people will be truly happy once they get the waistline they want or their abs are so hard you can wash clothes on them, will it bring happiness? Will it bring wholeness?

I myself have a picture of WWE Superstar Batista who they call the animal for a reason he is a BEAST and huge, he is also built like a brick s*** house, suffice to say he is pretty solid.

If I woke up tomorrow and looked like that would I be happy? I like to think I would be, women would swoon over me and men would want to be me, but would that truly make me happy.

I used to think without a doubt the answer was yes, that big muscles and rock hard abs and looking like a Greek god would fulfill my life, and everything would be perfect, but it won’t.

That’s not going to fix the turmoil and darkness that rolls around inside me.  It’s not going to fix what’s broken inside me that makes me eat and binge, the force that drive my food addiction as well as my other addictions, it will still be there waiting, watching, just itching for that chance to come back out and pick up where it left off trying to kill me.

For those of us who think of a rock hard body is going to fix everything wrong in our life let us turn our gaze to Hollywood and the gods and goddess's who live there, how many of those beautiful people are happy? allot? Probably, but how many are totally f***ed up? hoooo boy ALOT.  They have banging bodies, money, fame, power, yet they are just as miserable as the rest of us "normal" people

They have alot of the same problems and all their money and fame and good looks cannot seem to fix it.  It gives me pause and makes me ponder my own healthy journey.  When I am done 250-300 pounds from now will I look good? HELL YA I WILL *chuckles* I'm already an ego maniac, I am just an ego maniac with low self-esteem.    Losing that much weight will leave me saggy and wrinkled and probably not the Greek god body that I imagine in my mind.  Sure I can have surgery and get it removed so that I will look good on the surface but will that complete me? I know people get all bent out of shape at the thought of saggy skin left over from losing a large amount of weight, I am one of those people.
but perhaps I should just say who cares and be happy to be healthy and have a good long life ahead of me (God willing)  I have no idea how I am going to feel when I get to that point.

I hope by then to have learned some humility and that my ego is put into check and I do not run around like a mad man doing things I should not be doing.  Really all i can do is take life one day at a time and do the best that I can.  One day in the not to distant future I will open my eyes one morning and I will find I have arrived at the goal weight I have been shooting for, how will I feel? what will I do? will it be enough? I hope by the time that day arrives I will have the answer to all those questions.

I have been told countless times, gastric bypass your only option is gastric bypass, we cannot help you anymore gastric bypass.  I am so sick to death of hearing those words I want to vomit anytime it comes up in conversation.  Does it work? I have no doubt it will work, is it a good solution to battle obesity?  Maybe for some but not for me.  I REFUSE to have gastric bypass, I will go to my grave before I go under the knife.  What changes? I lose 300 pounds and look good but all the crap still inside of me thats broke is still there.  The success rate of bypass surgery is very low less than 25% of people who have the surgery lose the weight and still maintain that weight loss after 5 years, less than 25% that means about 75% of the people it does not work for, why? Because they go back to their old habits and undo the surgery and gain some or most or even all the weight back and more.

If I can combat the demons inside of me and change how I am living and change my lifestyle then the weight will come off in its own good time and I don't need to have any surgery to accomplish this.  I need to work hard, set goals, comes to terms with the things in me that are killing me and find a way to make myself whole again.  Between spark people, the 12 step programs I have found, the help of my Higher Power and the love and support of my friends both virtual and here I can kick the  sh*t out of my disease.  I won't ever be cured.

  The rest of my life I will be a binge eater, food addict and all around addict.  I will find a life of recovery where I do not binge and I do the things I need to do in order to be healthy and live my life.  The minute I start thinking I am in control and I can do whatever I want then I am screwed again. I will never be able to eat like "normal" people because I have a disease, like the alcoholic who cannot take even one drink or he will spiral out of control again, I cannot even think for one minute I can eat like everyone else can because I cannot, and that’s fine I am at peace with that.


I know the path I must walk to get to where I need to be and I pray that when I reach the end of this path that I will be ready to start the new path because the journey is never ending, losing the weight is the easy part, keeping it off and maintaining a healthy lifestyle is going to be the real b**** of it!  But at that point I will have the tools I need to fight the good fight.

If you are one of those people who think a perfect body is the answer to all your life’s problems then I certainly cannot begrudge you your goals nor do I wish to tarnish them, I just caution you to be careful what you wish for you might just get it, and when you get it will it be everything you thought it would be?  Don't forget to take care of the inside as well as the outside.  The demons that drive us now simply won't disappear the day we fit into the jeans we want to our the day our bodies look fantastic at the beach, if we do not deal with them the will still be there, watching, waiting, biding their time till they can take control again and if we drop our guard for a minute they will, just be cautious my friends that’s all

**Knowledge is Power**

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Top 10 Scariest Food Additives

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health.yahoo.net/experts/eatthis/top-10-scariest-food-additives

I often wonder why I click on these articles sometimes I think ignorance is bliss, but then again I just cannot help myself.

I’ll be honest I didn’t even really read the article I just skimmed it.  I almost don’t really want to know all it has to say.  Just looking at the pictures alone without reading much of it you know you are probably pretty much screwed *chuckles* although it’s not funny the s*** we ingest daily that we have no idea about would probably make us sick. (well IS making us sick we just don't realize it)

 I know I was watching a show one time where they were saying how in order to get all the disease out of burger they are going to make fast good patties out of they run it through and ammonia gas.  I might not be 100% accurate on that I know they run it through something that you DON’T want to be eating, it’s a gas and its nasty and you wouldn’t think about putting it into your mouth in a 1000 years if you had a choice, yet we do it every day IF we eat fast food.

 And yes you goody two shoes who don’t eat fast food can pat yourself on the back and get your gold star at the door.  Me personally I don’t eat fast food so I don’t have to worry *snickers* Well I try not to eat it anyways I have not been in the drive thru in a good long while now.  That doesn’t mean I am not ingesting who knows what through the rest of my food though.

 I wonder the amount of work it would take to investigate every piece of food I put in my mouth for an entire month, no that’s too long I don’t think I can stick with that, I think I’ll use my tried and true 12step ideal of just worrying about the next 24 hours.  I can keep track of all that stuff for 24 hours and see what really I am putting into my body.  Now I am not saying I am going to do it tomorrow or anything but soon,  I’ll put it on my to do list, I said soon, HEY GET OFF MY BACK ILL DO IT.. got dammit your pushy.

  I’m still not doing it tomorrow :P  I’ll pick a day here right off to track every piece of food I eat and see if I can determine everything that’s in it and break it all down into a list and then further track what each individual ingredient is and how it affects us or what potential side effect it may or may not have.  My brain is starting to hurt just thinking about it.


I have thought about going totally organic insane.  Eat nothing that contains any preservatives of any kind, eat as close to how nature produces it as possible, articles like this make me think I should do this sooner or later but can I really do it?

 First off living in a small town in northern Maine and having the
gardening skills of Freddy Krueger (it’s a pop culture reference and for those of you lazy b****** who won’t Google it, suffice to say I’m no gardener)

Can I afford to eat organic?

Can I even find enough food to sustain myself without having to eat something with preservatives and additives in it?

Again living in a small town makes some of these difficult, those of you who live in large cities and can do this easily you should know I have nothing but nasty names for you out of jealousy and I hope you realize how good you have it.
One 24 hour period to try and eat truly “healthy” can it be done? I would like to think so but I am not going out to kill my own food, I don’t hunt, I don’t fish, I am not really into killing much of anything, well except slow drivers and hippies.  I respect what you hippies are trying to do I love the message but something in me wants to gun you down with the car, I’m sorry I can’t help it.  If you see me coming you better drop your pot and your tambourine and run.


In case you haven’t figured it out yet my goal is to for 24 hours simply eat as nature intended me too.  How I can do this?  I really have no clue as of yet.  I’ll track everything I put in my mouth if I do eat things with additives I will list them and try to research them.  If I cannot figure out what’s in something I won’t eat it, which should be interesting seeing as how I like salad and how am I really going to know if it was treated with something or not when I am in the veggie section?

Should prove for a very interesting Mr. Wizard experiment for me, granted no one else might think it’s interesting and that’s fine (obscene gesture) I was just pointing out how pretty the sky looks right now.
Well as usual I have taken the focus off the article and put it on myself.  I am starting to turn into one of those shameless attention wh***s like the Real Housewives or some of the Jersey Shore cast.  I’d like to tell you I am ashamed of myself but that would be a lie.

In all seriousness I doubt the article really tells us anything we don’t already know.  What the article DOES do it put it right out in our face and make us admit what we don’t want to that were probably shoving stuff into our bodies every day that is slowly poisoning us and that we should be doing a better job of watching what goes into us, which we really don’t want to do.  We SAY we want to do that but when it comes down to it and you have to read every freaking label and figure out what ever freaking ingredient is that’s when our conviction starts to waver, and again for you A+ students who do this already you are gods among men and us mere mortals bow before you, now take your snotty better than thou attitude and scram.

Yes I’m cranky, the got d**n food companies have me p****d off now, because you KNOW they count on our ignorance and our laziness to not pay attention to what they are really doing.  Alright I am getting all riled up and into rant mode and its past my bed time, read the article, don’t read the article.  We can learn to read labels and know what we are looking at or we can keep sticking our heads in the sand.  We can try and live healthy and eat healthy, IF we can afford it and IF we can find the food we need to sustain us.

This rant has been sponsored by The Real Housewives of New York; watch them fight and attention wh*re themselves all over town Sunday nights on Bravo.
And it was also sponsored in part by McDonald’s:  McDonald’s let our crack dealing clown get your kids hooked on our food like we already have you.  You know the golden arches has made you its b****

Monday, June 27, 2011

HUDDLE Up

Huddling

Some days I huddle some days I do not.  Usually when I don't its from lack of thought about it rather than lack of ambition to do it.

I belong to some groups and it makes me sad as I am the only one who huddles. Although it’s a small act I believe it can have a great impact on us.

It keeps us involved and participating in a team.  It helps spread a little sunshine to others and in some cases offers people help when they need it.  I usually go down the other huddles to look for people who put down they are having a bad day or need some help.
I like to drop them a line and ask how I can be of service to them, most of the time by that time they have spoken to a few people and are in a better frame of mind and feel better, sometimes not.

Sometimes people just want someone to listen to them, I don't really full understand this concept as I am an Introvert for the most part.  Now I could just use the snide "Google it" comment I am fond out but feeling generous this morning I will save you the time
Introverts are more concerned with the inner world of the mind. They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. This is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to "recharge."

Taken from:  giftedkids.about.com/od/glossary/g/introvert.htm

This more or less describes me; I know some of you might find that a little hard to believe given the frequency that I add my 2cents into just about everything, I guess I am a walking contradiction.  I am introverted yet an ego maniac with low self-esteem, borderline narcissist who cares about other people, angel (that’s pushing it) devil.  I guess the phrase jack of all trades master of none applies.

I am getting off task here, it’s so easy to get talking about my favorite subject (IE: ME)  I often say that: service is the price we pay for our room here on earth, who said this originally I am uncertain I just know who I heard it from (via the internet) Muhammad Ali


This struck me instantly because service to our fellow man is indeed what will set us free from our own self-imposed prison.

They say that when elephants are young they chain them with this thick heavy chain that is impossible for the elephant to break.  It tries and tries and tries and it cannot get free.  Now when the Elephant grows up they simply tie them with a state and piece of rope or string, why?   Because the elephant knows from all its years trying it cannot free itself no matter the shackles.

I believe we are the very same, the chains that bind us are of our own design and only we hold the key.  Imagine the scene in fight club (Google it)**SPOILER ALERT*

 Where Brad Pitt is holding the gun and Edward Norton figures it out and suddenly the gun is in his hand, now basically Brad Pitt is a figment of Norton’s imagination so he realized that the gun in Pitts hand is really in his hand.  Confused?   good that’s what the movie does *chuckles* but it’s a FREAKING AMAZING movie, and I think there is alot of very useful info in that movie if you can sift through, they don't make it easy but the message behind the movie is liberating.

So the chains we cannot see yet hold us down and bind us are very much like the string and the stake that holds the elephant, we have tried so many times to break them and realized we cannot and we don't even try anymore.  Although we might not be able to break them on pure physical strength alone, if we only take the time to look we will see that the key to our freedom who is in someone else’shand, that person who persecutes us, puts us down, holds us down, keeps us from personal freedom, that the key is in fact in our own hands
I'm feeling good about this post today, lots of good stuff.  Even if no one else likes it I am pretty happy with myself *chuckles*

So I made you suffer through that long paragraph of confusing movie and animal reference to say this  Helping others will help us.  It’s very difficult to understand this concept especially when we cannot even help ourselves in the most trivial of task's it seems.
You never know what small gesture you make during the course of your day that you do not consider trivial will make the world of difference in other people’s lives.

Most people just want to know someone cares and that they will listen to them.  that’s it.  There are those who want you to solve their problems, and although it’s very tempting to indeed attempt such a task we cannot and should not do this.  We CAN however share our life experience if it relates to this person and if indeed it’s something we have done ourselves and found useful.

it’s usually a good idea to wait and be asked for our opinion rather than just blurting it out as they might not want to hear it.  I have a best friend who likes to call and complain to me, well not really complaining but likes to talk about things bothering her, which is fine that is what friends are for.   She can talk for 45 minutes without much interaction from me and at the finish she doesn't want me to try and solve her problems she just wants me to listen.
Most people are like this, I find this concept very foreign and I do not understand it.  Of course as we discovered above I am an Introvert..........I’ll wait for you to scroll back and reacquaint yourself with the description, yes I suppose I could post it again but don't be so darn lazy, if you have made it this far or read my stuff before you should know a certain amount of work is required by you the reader, nothing in life is free ;)

a** ,grass, or gas nobody rides for free!!

Ok I don't really promote drug use as I am clean and sober but I don't have the time to reformulate the phrase into something whimsical and intelligent sounding, besides I do kind of enjoy that bumper sticker.

So to make a long story even longer huddling is a good way to keep in touch with your team, maybe get a little positive energy from other member’s and just do your part to be of service to others.  When we stop thinking about ourselves and what WE want and thinking of others first our lives seem to open up in ways we could never have imagined before, that chains that bind us loosen and if we truly devote ourselves to service of our fellow man they will in time break and fall away.  Mine are still on but I can almost squeeze my hand out, if only I had a stick of butter.  I don't need to try to free myself, my actions will.  And your actions will as well

I belong to a 12 step program and one of the tools to our recovery is service, It doesn't matter if you belong to a 12 step program or not the same principles apply.

They say money can't buy happiness,  I am 50/50 on this as I struggle with money every day, its my own fault though as I do not budget well, ok I do budget but I don't use it (go figure) and I spend money on things that I could do without but feel that I cannot  (IE cellphone, internet, big screen TV, ps3)  This is all stuff and, well ok the internet one is a good thing because I can reach out to alot of people and if I did not have internet you would not have the pleasure of reading this long winded self-promoting diatribe  (yes I know some of you pray God to strike my internet down, you know who you are and SHAME ON YOU)
So to sum up in a few sentences what I did in a few pages but could have done with these few sentences is this:

  (coincidentally the point of that paragraph which i failed to make because i took a left turn when I should have gone right is that we can have all the money and stuff in the world but it won't make us happy, it will make life easier but it won't make life better mentally and spiritually, now i am willing to back up this claim someone give me about 10 million dollars and I'll show you how unhappy i am going to be, I am willing to do this, for you guys)

Use huddling every day, it takes 5 seconds (more if you read what your fellow sparkers say) but this small seemingly insignificant act will change your life.  Its the butterfly effect (seriously Google it I am running out of steam)..................ok fine if you’re going to be pushy

"In chaos theory, the butterfly effect is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions; where a small change at one place in a nonlinear system can result in large differences to a later state. For example, the presence or absence of a butterfly flapping its wings could lead to creation or absence of a hurricane."

This small act will ripple across someone else’s life and in turn bring about change in yours, its tiny, so tiny you might not feel it or see it yet, but the spark is there and if you fan the flames by thinking of others and not yourself, before you realize it that spark has become a white hot fire and you will find your life transformed in ways you cannot even imagine


DISCLAIMER:  The last few sentences seem to contradict a previous sentence about not telling people what to do unless you have done it yourself.  The writer admits that although his fire has not gotten white hot as of yet that the spark has indeed ignited into a decent size campfire, say big enough to roast marshmellows..mmmmmmmmmmmm marsh mellows *drools* Oh who am I kidding I wrote the darn article I will say whatever the hell I want so sue me.  Well not really I have nothing unless you want my cat

PS: After thought.  Watch the movie: PAY IT FORWARD circa  2000
It stars:
Kevin Spacey
Helen Hunt
Haley Joel Osment

Concept:  A young boy attempts to make the world a better place after his teacher gives him that chance.

Learn it, live it, love it

I’m out

**knowledge is power*

Saturday, June 18, 2011

10 Food and Herb Fixes for Allergy Relief



If you have allergies this article might be of use to you.  I love how brocolli is on all these lists.  I believe there is some political inpropriety at work here.  I think the lady who paid money to John Edwards is bribing the list makers to put brocolli on here, I don't like it, no sir I don't

Are sports drinks better than water?




Well like I really needed to post this one I know, its a slow news day and I was feeling the itch to get some attention so here we go. It wont rouse any fiery debate or anything but perhaps some of us might benefit from it, ya never know.

The Joys of health

After reading a blog on a friend of mines page I had started to relate my own Hospital ER experience but about halfway through I realized it's kind of rude to make her blog about me *chuckles* so I decided to post it in my own since I already wrote a considerable amount.  So this is my blog about the best Hospital ER experience I have ever had in my life.

 I have been having back pain for a while.  A few weeks ago it changed from just pain to when I sat down the pain would radiate and build up to the point where I had to either stand or lay down but no sitting.  Over the course of 48 hours it got to the point where I could not sit at all without intense pain.  I went to bed one night about 9 pm and woke up at 3 am in the worst pain I have ever felt in my life.  Just saying I got out of bed in a hurry is an understatement, and being the fact that a large man like myself doesn't move that fast I mother humping BOLTED out of bed with pain in my back AND leg so after walking it off I tried to sit down which was apparently against what my body had in mind and it let me know with a quickness.


  I had to call and roust my mother out of bed at 3 in the AM to take me to the ER.  Now granted I live in a small town and the hospital is probably 6-7 minutes away it's a pretty short trip, but not being able to sit was defiantly a problem, I don't think we made it a quarter of a mile before I made her stop in the middle of the road so I could fall out of the truck and stand up straight just to ease the pain but getting back in put me right into the same pain again, I was writhing around and moaning and groaning, I really didn't think I was going to make it, but I have to give kudos to my tai chi class where we do some discussion on meditation and controlling your breathing, so I calmed myself down focuses on my breathing and I managed to hold the pain in check until we reached the hospital, the excruciating pain aside it was a pretty cool experience.

Once I got to the hospital I was the only one there so I got right in which is always a bonus, especially since I was in pain.  The Dr came right in to see me and decided to give me a valium and a shot of something which name I did not get.  About 45 minutes later I was still in pain but feeling a little "good" so we upgraded me to a needle for of Morphine.  I am not really a "drug" user, I do not smoke ciggys anymore, or anything else, I don't drink, but I have to say if you ever get the choice, take the Morphine.

As much fun as the morphine was it still did nothing to dull the pain, which kind of put me into a panic, when a big ass needle full of morphine can't kill the pain your kind of screwed at that point aren't you?

Well then we upgraded to needle3, now to be honest I still have no clue what the hell was in it, it starts with a D and everyone tells me it must have been Demerol  (spelling)  I have no clue what it was but let me tell you about 30 minutes later I was 3 sheets to the wind.  I could barely stand, barely speak, I was pretty F***ked up *chuckles*.  Finally that combo of drugs managed to bring the pain down to the point they could ship me home with a host of feel good drugs that people would probably rob my house of if they knew I had them *chuckles*

So my mom took me home blitzed out of my mind.  All I wanted to do was go to bed, BUT I had to pee first.  I honestly can't tell you how long I stood in front of the toilet trying to take a leak before I got tired of standing and sat down, glancing at the clock my drug haze as my ass hit the seat it was about 6:30 in the morning.  I didn't leave the seat till about 7:30 *chuckles*  I forgot how to pee, I could not squeeze a drop out to save my life, I was kind of getting freaking out and I was having a conversation with myself that went along the lines of

"why can't I pee?" I asked

"well I think you forgot how to pee" I replied

"how can someone forget how to pee" I asked

"I have no clue you're the one who can't piss you tell me" I responded

So I pretty much talked to myself for about an hour while I sat on the toilet phasing in and out of consciousness trying my hardest to remember how to pee.

Towards the end I was really just going to say Fudge it and go to bed, but then I reminded myself that I really did have to pee and if I went to bed now I would probably piss myself, so after grumbling I agreed with myself and somewhere along the way I managed to convince my body to work with me long enough to pee.  It actually took me most of the day to regain my ability to pee without having to argue about it.

But the whole point of my story originally started out to say my trip to the ER was the best one I ever had, I got waited on quickly, the Dr's and nurses were on the ball and really took care of me, and on the plus side they got me REALLY F**ked up

On a side note come to find out I have a herniated disk in my back which is pressing on the nerves to my right leg, that's  kind of fun because my right leg is numb all the time and it gives out on me from time to time, sure makes life interesting *Chuckles*

But the Dr says it should go away on its own, could take a few weeks or a year to heal, now how the hell you go from a 2 week healing period to a 52 one I am not sure but what do I know I haven't been to Med school.  I do get to go see the spine people who can tell me if I am going to be ok or if my back is really frigged up, apparently the disk fragmented and if it moves then it can shut off my right leg altogether, at least it's not dull *chuckles*

Weighing nearly 400 pounds, man walks off half his weight


Two years ago, Phill Novak weighed 387 pounds. After losing 192 pounds, Phill Novak, 41, says he feels there's nothing he can't do.

He wasn't happy with his weight and neither were his doctors. In addition to taking medication for high blood pressure and cholesterol -- his physician warned him that he was on track to become a diabetic.

Reality hit in January 2006 at a Pittsburgh Steelers game. Novak had gone to smoke a cigarette.

"We were walking back up to our seats, and I started getting winded," says Novak. "I didn't feel right, I started sweating. I didn't think I would make it back up. My heart [was] beating a million times a minute; I thought I was having a heart attack."

Novak stood against a cold wall for 20 minutes to catch his breath. Fortunately, he wasn't having a heart attack but he was so frightened that thoughts of his family began to race through his mind.

"A lot of things went through my head, about saying goodbye to my kids," says Novak choking back his tears. "I told my friend, 'This is it, I'm not going to live like this no more.' "
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Novak, who was approaching his 40th birthday, made it through the football game. As he ate two double-cheeseburgers and a milkshake, he began to think about the limitations of obesity and how it was keeping him from living a full life.

Novak said the extra weight kept him from riding bikes with his kids. He dreaded doing anything physical like mowing the grass, shoveling snow or just moving -- period. Novak says even sleeping became difficult.

"When I was big, I could only sleep one way ... so I could support my belly," says Novak. "My back always hurt ... I could barely sleep and I remember always being tired."

The next day, Novak devised his own game plan and started his weight-loss journey.

He began simply by walking -- one mile a day and eating a low-carbohydrate diet of 15-30 grams a day.

"I walked off my first 100 pounds," he says. "Walked it off, an hour a day. I lost 100 pounds in seven months."

Novak continued to lose weight and as he built up his endurance he started jogging. Even though he had never belonged to a gym, he wanted to incorporate strength training. But the first time he went to the gym, he was intimidated by the loud music and weight lifters. He says he quickly "scampered" out and tried a few other places until he finally found a club where he felt comfortable.

Two years later, Novak has lost a total of 192 pounds. Today, he runs 30 to 40 miles a week, works out two to three hours a day, does yoga in the morning and squeezes in a push-up whenever he gets a chance at work.

Now maintaining his weight at 195 pounds, Novak says he's made a lifestyle change and rarely takes a day off from exercise.

Still, he doesn't take all of the credit for his weight loss. Novak says he couldn't have done it without the support of his family -- which he thanks for allowing him to be selfish.

"I am so proud of myself ... for the first time in my life," beams Novak. "Besides my kids, [this is] the first time I'm proud of myself."

Novak says losing weight has boosted his confidence and made him realize that he can do anything he sets his mind to. He says people also treat him differently and no longer stare at him. In fact, he enjoys the fact that people, who haven't seen him in a while, recognize only his Pittsburgh accent.

When he looks back at pictures of himself at nearly 400 pounds, he says it's hard to believe he treated his body that way.

Would he ever go back to being heavy?
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"No way! Ain't going back there ... won't do it, can't do it," says Novak.

"I've never been happier in my life!"

Best and Worse BBQ Foods


Honestly this article disgusts me *chuckles*

a hot dog? a FREAKING HOT DOG? give me a break.  The day a hotdog takes the place of my burger..well I dont know what Ill do but it will be something.

Ill trade my buger in for a turkey burger or even a piece of chicken but not a got damn hot dog.

I will go without eating anything before I swap my potatosalad in for coleslaw *makes a face* thats just nasty

Ok so potato chips and french onion dip are not healthy to be sure, but I'd rather lick dirt off the ground before I put hummus anywhere near any part of my body

Maybe some sliced up cucumbers and tomatoes with some ranch dip or something...anything is better than that nasty hummus and don't try and tell me otherwise I wouldnt eat that stuff even if i was dying and it would save my life, well ok I might think about it.

Ill have a little side salad or something if I am really concerened about calories but i will not under any circumstances eat coleslaw

I don't drink so I don't give a rats a** about margaritas

I'm not sure I want to trade in strawberry shortcake for a fruit bar, I mean fruit bars are ok, but there no strawberry shortcake *chuckles*

Well by the time I eat a piece of meat and some sort of salad and something to drink I dont think I really need dessert
but a half a biquit and a spoonful or so of strawberrys and some lowfat low calorie cream, it can be done.

Well anyways thats what I think


**knowledge is power** (and hummus sucks)

6 Simple Dietary Game-Changers


All common sense stuff well for those of us with common sense, the jury is still out on if I have any or not.

I do like the breakfast one becauase I think too many people skip breakfast and I do believe its a corner stone of our day, then again its not really any business of mine what anyone else does I have enough to worry about in my own backyard

The protein in roation is an interesting portion especially to a die hard flesh ripping bone snapping carnivore like myself.

Seafood I really cannot, well will not do *chuckles* the only time I like seafood is when its breaded and deep fried and even then I am not a fan so really whats the point? that seems to defeat the purpose in my mind.  However it cannot hurt to look things over and see where I can make changes.  I don't want to mess with things too much as I am still having a hard time just getting things working with the plan I do have so doing an overhaul might not be the best idea.


My Declaration of Self-Esteem: by Virginia Satir

I AM ME 

In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me 
Everything that comes out of me is authentically me 
Because I alone chose it - I own everything about me 
My body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, 
Whether they be to others or to myself - I own my fanatasies, 
My dreams, my hopes, my fears - I own all my triumphs and 
Successes, all my failures and mistakes Because I own all of 
Me, I can become intimately acquainted with me - by so doing 
I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts - I know 
There are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other 
Aspects that I do not know - but as long as I am 
Friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously 
And hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles 
And for ways to find out more about me - However I 
Look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever 
I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically 
Me - If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought 
And felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is 
Unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that 
Which I discarded - I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do 
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be 
Productive to make sense and order out of the world of 
People and things outside of me - I own me, and 
therefore I can engineer me - I am me and 

I AM OKAY